_{...you'd think I would have grown some by now.}

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This weekend, I was reflecting about something I learned with this traditional painting that I did: I need to be more confident! There are a few reasons why, but I found that during the progress of the painting, I would periodically just stall and almost freeze before forcing myself to continue working. I think the reasons for the poor confidence were in part because with my frequent digital work, I have become reliant on 'undo' and was a little afraid of not having what I came to view as a safety blanket; also, the further I progressed, it seemed I would keep saying to myself "well I don't want to wreck it now!"; and just the horrible perfectionist streak that can take hold- that really is counter-productive because while wanting to achieve impossible perfection, I achieve nothing because I'm scared of doing the wrong thing. Now looking back and evaluating it, I see that yes, I have problems if I don't think through what I want in advance, BUT once I have identified that, I really just need to start and let the visual output guide me. Inactivity and indecision are NOT my friends.

I think this site has helped me come to that realization also- so a ginormous thanks goes out to everyone. Without peer review, it is easy for someone like me to lose perspective.

Here's to learning and growth!! I vow to practice taking less deliberation time with my traditional art and to just bravely venture on, even if I am scared of failure. *god knows that can happen regardless of intentions, right?*